Live, to love, Live, to die[x]

I looked at him and bite lips as he asked he asked about simon I looked at him. "With him I was 4 years..." I said as I bite my lips as I looked at my lap. As I hoped this didn't changed how he looked at me..

I looked at her and smiled as I open the door for her. "Yes I can dance and picked up a few new moves too hun." I laughted.

I smile at him a bit as I bite my lips more. this was not what I was used to after all these years. anger and hate from men was all I knew. "I am okay. Just a little thristy." I said as I thought of something to talk about.

"Well, when I knew you it would bring you back for more if I had the right moves." I said with a smile at her. I couldn't help myself and kiss her cheek.

I sat there and looked at him a long time and smiled sighly and it was not one of the smile I forced to hind something from him it was really a smile though it quickly fade because it scared me this feeling that came over me. How I could be myself and not worried about anything around him. this feeling I didn't know what it was deep inside of me. "Hot green tea with a little bit honey." I asked in a low voice.

I was shock that she moved in time to make your lips lock so I just went with it and gave her a passtion kiss as I pulled her close to me I smiled as I kept dancing. "I wouldn't mind leaving early to have some time with you my dear." I said as I could feel myself wanting her and turned on I just hope that X don't pull a cock block move.

I couldn't help to smile as I looked at the hot water as I open the bag and started to dip it into the water and smiled more as the smell hit my face taking me back when i was younger way before I knew what my father had had plan as I was sitting on my mother's lap brushing my hair as she was drinking a green tea. as I added my honey and sturning it as take a taste to see how it was and add a bit more and sturn it again and smile as I tasted and it was just right. "I don't think I will have any right now. I am still full." I said with a smile.

I smiled at her as we keep danceing. "that sounds like a plan to me. I am sure he wants more time with her anyways.. to put his charm on her." I smile.

I waited for him get done talking and started to tell him of my mom and green tea story as he seemed to be off in his own thoughts. I stop as he asked me to repate myself as it seemed to be just like everyone else. "Oh,it nothing.." I said as I took a slip.

I listen to her talked as I followed her outside and to the car as she open the back door to the backseat I smiled more as I saw were this was going. "God, this is soo freaking hot." I said and I followed her into the back seat were I kissed her passtion kiss and deeply as I moan lightly as I let my other head take control as I let my hand runing over my hand over her.

I looked at him and smile lightly. "Yes, my mom would sit out in the porch and brush out my hair. I can still hear hear saying. 'Missie your in impostable. You roll around with the pigs again and your hair all a mess.' I couldn't help but laugh as she hum a song and then the kettle would started to whisle she would get up and make the tea and make it all sweet with just honey and brigh out the little chain she hand and would just have tea time on the porch with a cookies." I told him as I reach up and took a cookie and started to nipple on it as I laugh and tear up missing mother deeply.

I pulled my hands back and looked at her. "I had a feeling. I have missed you greatly too. I had thought it was because of me that you moved away other than your schooling." I said to her as I feel like an ass for just rushing into it all. as I sit up beside her.

I looked at him and bite my lips as I put down my tea and cookie resting it on my cup as my mother always did. I just lean on him."She got really bad sick...and dad did nothing..." I said as I go quite and looked down not wanting to go on because it was where the dark of my past started.

I listen to him and I hug her tight. "Well I am happy that your back." I said to her as I kiss her forehead.

I shaked as I felt his lips on my forehead and i stop and moved away and went to my tea and took a drink. "but it not now..." I said almost harsh.

"Yeah." I said as I run my fingers through her hair as I could be like this forever as I could easy into it all.

I watch him walked off mad as I just sigh as I looked at the tea and just drink it as I sat there as I lay my head on the couch arm having a feeling it was best to just sit here and let him have his space.

"I don't mind if we head back."I said as I let her go so she get in the driving sit and I just sit here so she could get there faster. As I was worried about what was going on now that she said said that.

This was the best thing for me to do right now. I just needed to sit down and relax and chill out. I need to remember her background and history but I just wanted to help and I just want her to know that I will be there to help her no matter what, and not to be afraid to come and tell me. Even because I know I might not be the man that she wants to be with. So I sat for a bit with my head in my arms and I almost fell asleep when I heard my sister come into the door. She walked over to me and started talking.

[color=yellow]**A couple of minutes earlier**r=violet]I drove as fast as I could to my brother's house and when we got into the driveway, I told him just to stay out here in the vehicle because if it was nothing serious then I would be back out and we could go and do as planned." I will see you soon just stick here and I will be back out, I promise." I said to him as I left the vehicle and went into the house. I seen my brother with his head in his arms and seen the other girl looking upset over on the couch. Oh dear what could have happened here. I pulled over a chair to beside my brother and said,
What's wrong?"

For one, I love how you know these things, but seriously just a simple phone call or text would work, and you will say I never thought of that, and I will say you never do. It's nothing really, we just had a little argument, and we are fine. I think we are heading to bed soon, this tea has made me quite sleepy. What are your plans for tonight? When will I see you guys? Since I know you and him both don't work until monday. and it is wednesday."

"Well that is good to hear that nothing serious is wrong and you are right, I need to start remembering to text you or call you first." I sid to him with a smile; even though we both know I always show up on purpose just to make sure just like he has always done for me and still does. "We are going out for a bit. You can lock the door we both have keys, and we will be back here sometime in the morning." I said to him.

"Just remember if you guys need a DD, you can call me I don't care what time it is. I don't my sister or my best friend dying." I sad to her as she ran out the door replying. "I will don't worry." The thing was I worried a lot. She was going to show off while she was driving which isn't good in any case for anyody. I looked out the window and watched them take off and then I went back into the living room to see my friend. "I am sorry about what happened. I understand I probably stepped over the line by kidding your forehead and that I would have asked first or waited a bit, but you just looked so sad. Thanks for the hug by the way." That was all. Now I just waited for her to talk.

I sit there as he was in there with his sister and they talked for a bit and then I hear the door shut again and a car hurry away. I knew I was alone with him again. I started to bite my nails as I though of everything. He comes in and was talking about the kiss on the forehead. I just looked at him as if he was crazy as I shooke my head and then looked up at him no real way. "It was not the kiss...it was sweet of you...really..." I said as I sigh feeling like a bicth now. "It just that I just not ready to really be open all the way...you know...I don't mean to jump to definces...it still hardward I guess..."I look down as I reach over and grab a throw pillow and hug it and used it to hide my face as I didn't wanted to show him the tears in my eyes though I did started to shake because of the fact that it was nothing for Simon to just put his hand on the pillow and sufficat me. I pick out and see it was not him as I looked back into the pillow as more tears come because I keep compairing this sweet guy to all simon and all the other guys..

I give her a nod as she told me she was going to in and just check to make sure it was not really big problem. I wait until she was in the house as I get out and walked around and get into the passager seat in the fornt as I noded my head to the music as I hum with it too. As she comes running back as she seemed to be smiling a bit. I greet her retrun with a smile. "What was going on?" I asked her as I waited to hear what was going on as I was hopeing this was not going to rune our plans but would understand if she told me all the plans was off and she need to talked to the girl.

I stiffen up as he hold me and rocked me as I started to cry holder from beening a bit scared. It was hardwired again as I close my legs tight and my arms over my chest as I let him rock me as more tears fall as he talked. I just nod to scared to say a word as I cry and try to hind my neck too. the only thing I couldn't hid was my ass as.

I smiled at her as she explain it was X beening see and she was not ready.As we got there I followed her I didn't like that she was paying for all this but i didn't say anything as I smile at her. "Yes we can stay the whole weekend my love." I said as I hold her close as I play with her hair.

I loosen up just a little bit but I kept my legs tight and my hands over my chest as tears run down more as I couldn't beleive that I was just sitting there crying in some guys arm. as I just started to babble about everything but nothing was could be made out as english words or another tounga know to man.

I followed her up as I keep looking around the room in awww as I kissed her back. "I am happy things worked out the way they did. It just means that I know what I would be living with out if I ever lost you again. Just means that I will fight harder for you. And if you left I would follow you this time." I said as I knew it was worst thing I did by not following you.

I looked at him as more tears fall and run down my cheeks as I couldn't get any real words out but a smile lightly as he asked if I need anything. I didn't say thing but just looked at him as he handed me the keelex as I blow my nose a few times and started to wipe my eyes as I just fall quite and just looked at him. How I wish I knew him back when everything started to change in my life. He would had stop jim, jack, larry and simon from happening. Jim was 3 weeks, jack was 2 months, Larry was 3months, and simon 4 years. All of it happened when I was 13 years old. Jim and jack and even Larry was around my age. Then father found someone to take care of me as he saw fit, Simon. My father had lost his mind after mother had past it was like all the love in the man had gone from him. that was mainly want I was trying to tell him but it didn't come out that way. I just sat there and looked at him. I didn't realized that I loosen up fully as I sat there thinking that he had heard every word yet was still clueless to what I was telling him.

I listen to her as I give a low sigh as I smiled at her as she stand almost naked infront of me as I strip down to my boxer as I moved over to her and "That would be nice my love." I said to her as I join her on the bed as I kissed her deeply and passtionly. I hoped that she knew that I would follow her now if she ever chose to leave again no matter what I was not going to lose her again. I refused to let her go. I would die now that I have tasted her sweet lips and her soft touch. She was everything I ever wanted and will ever need. I would fight and die for her. I would be her shield and sword when the dark comes back to try to claim her. I would be the light house of her endless sea. I would give her anything and everything with just one breath from her lips.